Destiny is Ridiculous

Once,
i live like a princess in the past
*just a describtion but not really a princess
nothing to worry
nothing to scare
eventhough faces some friendship problems
but everything still goes very well
life seems wonderful.

Since when,
everything ruined?
life become so miserable?
everything needs to think carefully before i take action
gotta worry bout lot of things
every part of my life fall into pieces
not wonderful anymore
i forced to do lots of things that i don't like
i forced to say bye-bye to lots of thing i love the most
is this the so-called destiny?
if it is, i hate to believe in destiny,
its just fooling people around
can i go back to the past?can i?
can anyone just tell me yes?

i wish to everything stay the same likes 3 years ago

why he still not realize his mistake yet?

what he did is nothing different with killing us with a knife,

a sharp knife.

he is stabbing our heart with the smile on his face.

he made my life sucks

he made everyone of us in miserable state

can anyone tell me,

why he not feeling guilty at all?

i did try to face the reality
but its hard
really hard to solve those unsolvable problem
i gave up on lots of things
i thought the tough moment will end soon
but no...
i'm naive
nothing goes smoothly,don't since when.
how long will it pass?
i couldn't take it anymore
if not becuz of him
i think i wont hold for so long
if not him,
i think i can't survived
i think i won't realized sometimes..
life still wonderful although its juz a tiny bit.